Once in a dream, I saw you telling me
That you've traveled in the dark
Just to find that little spot
In the vastness of the night

Then i saw some tears were coming from your eyes
as you said you'd found your paradise
and i began to ask you why you have to cry?

And now, its so dream like I hear you telling me
its been such a perfect grace; its been such a perfect place
To be in my heart at last, and have angels singing you a song
And its time for me to say goodbye to those eyes
To let you go so sleeplike and hear your whisper
Why we have  to cry?

Its a journey, you say, an illusion of a journey
Now you cant see where it ends and where it starts
Its our life and our love that you wish to have ,
Where you wish to be

In this tiny spark of memory, mortality
whats left for me to do is to welcome you home
Back to my heart, back to heaven's light
Back to my heart, and we're never apart

Its a journey, you say, an illusion of a journey
Now you cant see where it ends and where it starts
Whats left for me to do is to welcome you home

Back to my heart, back to heaven's light.......

Back to my heart, and we're never apart........

Dee - Rectovesto

Sekarang 22 September 2012 di Gelora Bung karno lagi berlangsung SMTOWNINA

Gue bangun jam 12 siang, udah dua hari ini hidup gue bener-bener kacau.
Kacau karena semua apa pun yang gue lakuin terasa salah aja, kayak orang bodoh, iya..super bodoh!

Sha-sha ampe ngemention di twitter : "bel, gue prihatin sama lo!"

Iya, gue sendiri prihatin sama apa yang gue lakuin sekarang.
Gue cuma bisa baca perkembangan Super Junior dari fanbase, liat update poto terbaru, bahkan gue ngikutin konser SMTOWNINA cuma dari live report ditwitter.

Rasanya? Gak tau..gue bahkan lupa kapan terakhir kalinya gue nangis.. dan malam ini mata bengkak, kelenjer air mata kayaknya keluar gitu aja.
Ini tuh rasanya bener-bener sakit, gue gak bisa nonton SMTOWNINA.
Gue gak tau artis-artis SM, gue gak hapal nama-namanya apalagi lagunya..
Gue cuma mau nonton Super Junior.

SMTOWNINA ini adalah konser terakhir Leetuk (Leader Super junior) sebelum army oktober nanti, arusnya dia army akhir bulan september tapi ditunda sampai oktober, tadinya gue juga mikir dia gak akan datang ke SMTOWNINA dan konser di China bulan kemaren adalah konser terakhirnya.
Jumat pas smua artis SM udah kumpul diAirport, tiba-tiba dia ke bagian imigrasi, Leetuk keliatan badmood dan balik sama managernya kemobil dan batal brangkat karena urusan visanya, setau gue susah keluar negri buat para orang yang waktu untuk wajib militernya itu sebentar lagi.

Tapi Leetuk ngetwit ditwitter dia akan kejakarta dengan pesawat sore dari Korea.

Dari dulu kalo nonton konser apa pun itu gue slalu pakai uang tabungan sendiri, gue rela gak makan cuma buat nabung, gue rela gak belanja apa pun kalo ke mall... tapi karena kebegoan gue sendiri, karena prediksi tolol gue kalo bilang Leetuk gak bakal datang keSMTOWNINA, karena gue dari awal gak nabung makanya gak bisa nonton SMTOWNINA!!!!

Tadi nonton presscon SMTOWNINA ditv, Leetuk pake jas silver dan keliatan dia begitu pengen komunikasi sama fansnya dengan coba ngomong bahasa indonesia sebanyak-banyaknya, mencairkan suasana dengan pura-pura niruin leader lain pas diwawancara pake bahasa Inggris, karena leetuk gak bisa bhs inggris, dibackstage dia sempet nanya "sebenarnya ini selamat malam apa selamat pagi?"
Karena ada sebagian artis SM tadi yang ngomong pas prescon selamat sore dan selamat malam.
Sumpaaahhhh ya! leetuk lo niat banget!

Saat ini detik ini gue bener-bener benci banget sama diri gue sendiri!!
Gue harus nunggu 2 taon kedepan buat liat Leetuk on stage lagi.
Gue gak bisa ngeliat stage terakhir Leetuk.
Gue gak bisa nyanyi Only You, From U bareng ELF lain..
Gue bahkan gak bisa tereak "SARANGHAE OPPA!"
Gue gak bisa tereak "KAMSAMIDAA Leetuk"
Gue gak bisa liat leetuk terakhir kalinya ngenalin member SuperJunior.
Gue gak bisa megang banner fanbase yang biasanya dibagiin sebelum masuk
Gue gak bisa megang stik buat bikin sapphire blue ocean buat leetuk, terakhirnya
Gue akan nyesel 2 taon kedepan karena ari ini gak nonton SMTOWNINA, ini stage terakhirnya PARK JUNG SOO diluar negri, akan benci diri gue sendiri.
Gue gak bisa nonton Him Kangin, ini konser pertamanya di jakarta setelah Army dan gabung lagi sama Super junior.
I REALLY HATE MY SELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gue cuma bisa disini, liatin tangkai mawar yang udah jadi bangkai,
dulu dibagiin leetuk pas di SuperShow4 Ancol.
2 taon lagi umur gue 25. I'll Waiting Super junior lengkap, ada Heechul...Perform di Jakarta ntar
Pas umur 25 gue akan nonton Super Junior pake baju biru, bawa stick biru dan tereak-tereak

"LEADER-NIM!!OPPAAA!!! FIGHTING!!! SARANGHAE!!

Beberapa minggu ini pemberitaan di tv khususnya Timur Tengah menjadi pusat perhatian dunia.
Mungkin benar dibeberapa negara bagian ada yang masih dalam keadaan perang, agresi militer.
Tapi pagi ini yang gue tonton bukan tentang itu, tapi munculnya sebuah film "Innocence of Muslim" yang kabarnya menewaskan warga Amerika Serikat yang ada di Libya.
Sampai akhirnya gue search apa sih itu film.
Awalnya gue pikir ini adalah suatu hal biasa, yang bisa dihadapi dengan isu-isu seperti ini.
Tapi entah kenapa makin bikin gue miris adalah saat isu ini meluas keseluruh dunia, Indonesia juga kena.
Jujur aja miriss..liat anak SD, yang demo dijalan.. iya anak kecil, gue cuma gak ngerti kenapa anak kecil dijadiin "alat".
Adik-adik SD, being a reactionary is not revolutionary it is ignorance lhoooo...

Demo di Surabaya sekelompok orang yang menamai diri mereka umat muslim, para rombongan besorban datangin resto cepat saji (KFC, McD) trus mensegelnya. Pertanyaaan gue cuma satu:
"Itu ayam salah ape pak haji??"

Sampai akhirnya gue mendapat Broadcast Messgr.. yang intinya mengimbau buat berhenti menggunakan Google, Youtube biar dapat mempengaruhi saham mereka. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA

Tidak semua yang terjadi adalah sebuah kebetulan.........

Many of you are frustrated me with your messages about this stupid film that has consumed your minds.
May Allah forgive you for your ignorance and may He replace it with knowledge of Syariah, amin

The scholars have agreed that it is harram to repeat the words said by those who have slandered the Prophets and their family. Therefore continuing to talk about this movie is free promotion which makes more people hear this slander and share in this harram.

When one slanders the Prophets or their families or the sahahaba you are to leave that group of people so that if the punishment of Allah comes your not among them.

You should also ask them to make taubat.
Instead the Muslims have promoted this film with non-stop protest making
the film recent nearly 1 bilion views on Youtube.
At the same time the graves of the family of the Prophet in Libya and Mali have been destroyed and Sayyed's in Syria and Afghanistan, else where are being killed.
The muslims Rohigya have yet to receive any help from any muslim nation other than weak rheotic.
The Muslim in Mindanao are almost extinct.
Are those who are protesting praying, fasting, do they know how to make Wudu?
Do these muslims know fard Al-Ayn and fard Al-kiffayah?

What are you seeking to gain from this? HA!?

Its hypocritical to allow the graves of ahl bayt and the sahaba to be destroyed
and their living family members killed as you focus on this film.
Groups such as Ikhwan and Salafiyyah have only been using these protest to spread their influence for personal gain.
The Arab spring as a whole was a failure and was a plot to destabilize the Muslim world and it has worked.

So please stop protesting this film and turn to Allah. :)
Increase your Islamic studies and dawah efforts.
The Muslims cannot continue to fight in state of ghafeelah (heedlessness) with no wisdom or understanding.
Forgive me for this....is just a reminder return to your religion and its foundation of basic principles!